Feeling sad.

How do you process grief when a loved one dies suddenly?  What do you do to cope with your feelings?  I’m going to be honest with you.  I am going to chat with someone.  That’s right.  I am admitting it.  I am going to seek outside help.  Too many things have been going on in my life and I have been trying to tie up all the strings, but it is very much like trying to hold on to a bouquet of balloons.  Some of the strings are in my hand…others are hiding in the bunch and are starting to slip out.  Some days I want to be like that meme that says “It’s Friday!  F-ck this shit.  Just kidding.  It’s still Thursday, and I need those.”  Today was one of those days for many, many reasons.

I don’t know how all of my other friends feel about me admitting this here, but we have lost so many people I think I need to just say it.  My friend had not been sick…that is to say, not on the outside.  It appears he was suffering from depression.  I think the hardest thing about using that word is that it is so misunderstood.  Life is hard to deal with folks.  Even famous people get depressed.  One that I often quote and admire who battled depression is Sir Winston Churchill.  Just because people can’t see what’s happening to you on the inside doesn’t mean you ignore it.  Here is a good list to read.  Until we meet again.

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