Pain or Possibility … it’s up to you!
My blog to me, is like ripping parts of my soul out and pressing it onto paper for you to read. At first it hurt. It left me raw and exposed to the world. You know I have issues. You know I’m not perfect. You know I’m a hot mess at times. And … it’s o.k. Nothing fell apart. I didn’t die from this experience. In fact, I think it made me stronger – Aimee
Why ‘The Burned Hand’?
When I was 3 years old, I was helping my mom “cook”. I went over to the stove and reached my hand right up on top of the red-hot burner. As I was screaming, she said stick your hand out the window, as we raced in the car to the doctor’s office. It was raining, and her hope was that would cool my hand down. I don’t remember much about it other than the burns were bad, but my hand healed.
Twenty years later, my hand was burning yet again. This time, for a different reason. You see I had learned my lesson back then…to stay away from cooking, but at 23 years old I developed horrible, painful blisters all over my hands. When the blisters popped, the liquid felt like acid. The skin would literally ache and pull tight and itch like fire after that. It was actually worse than burning my hand once…because this continued to happen over and over until I was diagnosed with Porphyria Cutanea Tarda (you can look it up in the search button on my blog) or click that link to take you to my first post about it.
I had pints of my blood taken for years as there is no cure…then they realized I had hereditary hemochromatosis…
Would it ever end?
I had two beautiful girls and a loving husband, but apparently, there would be more tests to find out what I was made of. I was experiencing horrible stomach pains, bloating, and weight gain over 25 pounds in one year…on my tiny 5’2 frame. It was not okay, and I knew that no matter what doctor was saying at the time, that HE was wrong. After 18 years of seeing specialists, I knew what my body was doing. It was warning me yet again that another war was going on. This time it was autoimmune…Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis.
Around this time, I could feel my spine literally come alive. Every single point in my vertebral column was on fire all the time. I was told later that it was probably the Epstein-Barr virus coming to life…just in time to flare Fibro-freaking-myalgia. That’s what it should be called. The truth is, I have another F word for it, but I’m going to be nice-ish.
That leads us to where I left teaching…after a few years of pain that could no longer be managed in the classroom with the demands of a stressful teaching job. And to what I hoped would be a new career writing. No one bothered to tell me how hard it was to simply “become” a best-selling writer…when you don’t actually send anything in to people.
And now …
I healed my gut through a series of steps I researched all on my own. I lost the weight. Realized most doctors treat the symptoms not the “disease” and never explore what more we could do. It was get on this prescription…which would in turn make me worse, so I said no. It was beat depression…without meds…but if you need them, I am not judging. I personally couldn’t take them due to the amount of damage one doctor thought would happen due to all the other “invisible illnesses” I had. There were no outward signs, but hey, my liver could possibly have problems if I took pills I didn’t need. I started Vitalize You Wellness, << and made it my goal to find a way to live without food attacking my gut…ok so my body thought it was invading. I now connect with people through my coaching programs to coach them to “wellness” and encourage them to believe that anything is possible. Even coming back from a place of pain.
My most important message now though is to let others like me know that it doesn’t have to take you years of research like me. Head|Heart|Health Club is a self-paced online journey that is like a magazine for your soul, and you are welcome to read more on the link. If your story sounds anything like mine or you just want guidance on where to go, what to do, and have no clue where to even begin, check out my personal coaching online journey. If I can change my life, I believe you can too. New Journaling E-books are available here: ONLINE catalog <<<
“And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.” ~Sylvia Plath