Rage against the dying of the light…

It’s 1:50 a.m. and I can’t sleep, so here I am.  Something is nagging at me and I have to get this out.  I do not blame anyone at all in the universe for what has happened to me.  That’s right.  Sure genetics play a factor in everything, but the minute you are created there is a path laid out for you.  I believe this and I am not asking you to change whatever it is you believe in, but it’s there.  I don’t blame God as some people do when things happen.  I am not pissed off at Him for this series of unfortunate events that life has thrown my way.  I might not always feel this way, but right this moment, I am okay with it.  I read where the Japanese people have taken everything in stride that has happened to them. Editor’s note, this is me reading over this a few years later and it was after the meltdown at Fukushima. The people began to pick up the pieces of their lives and carry on.

Would we all want bad things to happen to us if we had a choice?  No, but then what if something worse was the choice?  I used this quote over a year ago to comfort a friend who was dying.  “All I have seen teaches me to trust the creator for all I have not seen.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

So, pushing all the pain aside, I decided to work through it.  I went on a brisk 4.5 mile walk/jog with my girls today.  We stopped when we needed to and admired the scenery.  All the while my little one was saying how cool the woods looked and how much fun she was having.  I love being outside with nature.  So I wear sunscreen now, and didn’t have to before.  No big deal.  Maybe that is saving me from something else.  So I don’t spend a great deal of time in direct sunlight, again, the woods has always been my favorite place anyway and it’s shady in there.  I am on new medicine to counteract the pain I am feeling in my bones/back area.  I decided to take Yoga since I tried it once before and didn’t stick to it.  Maybe I was meant to teach Yoga and meditation later in life.  Who knows?  I will leave you with a closing quote that has been on my mind for a few days.  I think of this quote often and for many reasons, but it applies to life in general for me.

“Do not go gentle into that good night, old age should burn and rage at close of day; rage, rage against the dying of the light.”  ~Dylan Thomas

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