This week, some things have tried to jump out, tackle me, and take me down. In the overall grand scheme of life, they are NOT the big things. I am sitting here right now asking myself why I let these small, but not nice, things get under my skin? Why do we, human, react first and sometimes think later…or maybe we don’t think at all? How can I be a leader, a mentor, and a yoga instructor if I let negative people influence my feelings? I guess it’s because I am human and just trying to do the best I can at any given moment just like everyone else.
So what did I learn this week? What lesson did I take away from having a bully type teacher take things out on my child in subtle, but nasty ways? What did I learn from the woman who didn’t get any facts straight, but called me to say some nasty gossip out of the blue just because she wanted to instill some doubt in my thoughts about the high school where my daughters go and it’s safety? Did I lean into fear, negativity, worry, doubt and anger for a bit? Yes. It was like my impulse where my children are concerned. Did I then take a step back and breathe? Yes. But why wasn’t the breathing part first this week? It was a reminder that like all good skills, you have to practice.
I hadn’t been stretching my gratitude muscle as much as I thought.
As I sat with this and tried to put it in perspective, I thought about how sad these two people are in their lives. I also thought about how the school still needed to know to possibly look into things, so after cooling off, I did send my nice e-mail which was received and made me feel better. I was able to articulate from the former teacher perspective and still be thoughtful as the parent. I did feel better when I addressed the concerns. Now it was time to shift into gratitude.
Using Negativity to Practice Gratitude:
- I asked myself what was true about what I heard. I then turned it around to what can I learn from this? There were so many lessons to be learned there. So many. How did this make me feel? Could I teach my daughter to stand up for herself in a way that wasn’t rude or disrespectful? How could I show her that sometimes even authority figures get it wrong? But in a way that is helpful to teenagers and won’t hurt them in school.
- What benefits could I pass on from this? I am going to be honest, when I get in “seeing red” mode, I think of zero benefits and that helps me zero as well. Was there a calm way I could think outside the box? Yes. I learned that I could let go and move on as my daughter did and she said she had it under control and would be fine. The benefit is trusting that it will work out in the best possible way and provide growth to us all.
- I then asked what I could be grateful for from these situations. It could always be worse. << This statement, while it feels unfair perhaps, is true. Sometimes we are so mired down in our own “stuff” that things feel like an attack on our well-being. It feels like a personal and quite unnecessary way to show us things that need our attention. That was what this showed me. I am grateful for my relationship with both of my daughters. I am grateful they come to me with things. I am grateful that I have support from my family as well. What do I need to praise more in this situation? And I knew that it was the trust in my children to make the right decisions.
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