Irritation…
A few things…remember that post where I talked about being Scorpio? You know the one where I basically said the worst thing you can do to a Scorpio is lie to them or try to manipulate them? Yeah, that’s the one. Well, I really wish people walked around with those pop up bubbles above their heads. For example, mine would say, “Don’t lie to her. It isn’t worth it. She knows the truth.” It would make life easier and simpler if we could be honest. At least, I think so.
I know a few guys who might have some pop up bubbles referring to a particular cleansing product…that way their future girlfriends already know. It just really would help some sisters out. That’s all I’m saying. Perhaps you know some people and have already thought of what their bubbles would say. “bat-shit crazy” “liar” “call the police” These come to mind as being helpful. Anyway, I guess life is a gamble. You gamble with friendship. You gamble with trust. You even gamble on love. Sometimes, you get lucky. Then, there are times, you think it’s about to go your way and you lose it all.
I stay in a state of mild irritation with society most of the time. Why? Because I expect more. My husband tells me that’s my problem. I have come to expect that people are basically going to do the right thing, and then, when they don’t, I feel let down. He keeps very few friends close. He actually expects the opposite. He expects people are going to let him down, and when they don’t, he is pleasantly surprised. Every time I make new friends, I hope that they will be people who would get my back like I’d get theirs. I always hope they won’t let me down…that they would take up for me if needed. Because the bottom line is, I’d do it for them. And they know that. So tonight, I will release the irritation I have been holding and grasp onto this one thought…people are not always going to be able to give me the truth. It’s ok. They won’t always have my back. But the true friends, you know the ones, those are the ones who are worth staying up for. Those are the ones I would go to jail for. I hope I never find myself in that situation, but you know what I mean.
Every lie is two lies — the lie we tell others and the lie we tell ourselves to justify it.
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Love the idea of everyone having a descriptive comic bubble! I wonder what mine would say… Like you I expect too much and am easily and always disappointed. I think that is the curse of feeling things deeply, perhaps too deeply. My true and great friends are like that too. We all want the world, our lives, and our children’s lives to be better than what we see they are. We were taught to expect good and greatness. But the world does not subscribe to that vision. And so we are left with that expectation and dream that can only disappoint and upset us. Maybe my comic bubble will say, “She let go of all her expectations and now finds contentment in her life.” It is always about letting go, isn’t it?
Yes! I need to let go of expectations and be content that people are what they are. In life, many things can and do let us down. I like your bubble my friend:)